with utmost humility
I can just tell you my ways out of things like that..
it’s ways, beacause it’s my learning, and it proceeds through a lot of abusive – sometimes I myself without wishing to be that — re-late-shion-ships.

We consist of different groups of fine structures/“bodies“.

ALL THOSE abuses happen – are only possible — within our heartcentered wraps/highly movabel veils.
I experience what is called and known as AURA in a slightly different way..

IF I AM/your father is// nearly feelingless, no empath at all: I’m like a knife, that enjoys to cut into these feeling bodies of others who have it, are it.

It is for those: like taking a bath in a Jacuzzi Whirlpool. It makes them feel the fine vibrations of the other person. It’s STIMULATING!! It’s cool!!

(take it from me: my mother played pieces.. no end. UNTIL I taught myself to keep her out of those holy gardens of sweetness, strength and health)

So for them: it’s MORE FUN 〖and makes them completely forget about „you“!!〗 _because they dont have it. Your high vibrations they cannot perceive, entering their sting/cut…wounding. THEIR KIND OF receiving-antenna/ into you or their knife of hatred.. whatever is their „highest“____truly, without any social make up!!)___________

To be compared with us: you and I could maybe go into a heavy fight!! BUT WE NEED A REASON. Neigher you nor I would simply attac the other one: not embarassing the other, not dishonouring, not degrading.. blablabla) WE have no motive to present like that. We are able of co.harmonious b-have-iour, AND WE ENJOY THAT. We would love to have a coffee together, some fine bread.. a talk and a look into your beautiful garden or the carefully furnished living-room.

THEY do not have these enjoyments. THEY ENJOY — and don’t pity them!!! This was one of my gratest faults: THEY ENJOY PERFECTLY, when they carve your feeling flows out of you, kind of licking them!! THIS makes them THEIR 100% happy! (remember: they live out of different subtle corpses! This is the mechanics of „character“ 🧅🥒🙄🍺🦢🧲🤏)

But, in my opinion.. 
as we already lived our childhoods exposed to THEIR enjoments – nourishing them instesad of experimenting with them gardens of feelings together———-, that only happen „consuming“ the other one in parts…

___________ ça suffit, basta, es reicht, vonde, enough!

You, and your rich, sweet and strong mantle of heartflows around your earthly body
will always be treated like that 〜by those, not by beings similar to us!!〜 ͠ ～, because the other being is different in it’s subtle structures (I should say, much more primitive, but.. well: this is my point of view. Beings with extremly primitive – ego-sucking only-raptor-predator feeling-antennas will see US AS funnily STUPID: because THOSE AMONG THOSE are in constant battle. Nonagressiveness to them is stupidity. For us it’s wellbeing, grounding, the basis_________we have different subtle bodies with the poultry and the white fir too!!! And among us human bodies bearers: differences are even more encompassing. (Logically. Where there is more structures-bodies-fields-movability you can differ it more abundantly)

If this tells you something,

please ask YOUR QUESTIONS, or tell YOUR findings.

A dear hug

BPS.: not even distance frees you. Inner understanding of what is done to you again and again and again IN THOSE SUBLTE ROOMS.
AND: you need to break your heart.
I was unable to say, within me: MY MOTHER IS WITHOUT BEHAVIOUR. (in the deeper realms)

You must agree to say within you, IN CASE, that this „be“loved person is NON LOVING⋰⋰⋰and thus not loving you…😳🙃🌾🐬🤍

This to me was an incredible hindrance.

🌷🌷🌷🌷AFTER THIS you may start to appreciate them in another way which is beautiful, aber very learning too.🍂🔬🍂🎄

But you must be able to pass this threshold of TAKING ALL YOUR HEARWARMTH completely back into yourself. And afterwards you just give the miniminimini-„Lovey“ to them, they can return. SO THAT THEY CANNOT cut into your sweet parts.
Not seeing them at all, just calling from time to time helps enormously. ➥ ➢➣➤➦ while you are elaborating your house-cleaning of their abusive rooms/heartcandy-shops/ they install-ed within you ⬅︎ ☜ ⥢

Abusive persons use you as their beloved drug. For their „joint“.

You are kind of regrowing adrenocrome*-cocktails for them-
Sorry to say, this is my finding.

*what we call soul ——just for me.. ——–is our tool for into-the-Earth-creation/our lives. It’s our body of coulour and sound. With this we move spacetissue to creations. IT IS NOT our being!

And those near∽to∽not∽feeling∽“predators“ „open us“, AND THEY KNOW HOW TO DO THIS, because they had us as smallest children to their..“power-lusts“, AND THEY TAKE THEIR habitual, and pleasantly grwoing…. Jacuzzi.Vibrational-Bath in our intense pain vibration,
AND then kind of lick the masses of colour and tone (not to our physical ear..) we exude, „cut“ by their primitive hard stiff „fine“structures. THEY ARE WEAPONS. And happy knives antenna-bathing in the blood of the dying animal. DOES this remind you something… 

here we go: those ancient not∶able∶to ∶ovingly∶bodyjoin peoples.

With so much love,

and the 💎✨brilling❄️🕊 wish you may find your ways.

To understand these partially brutal „plays“ we do to one another with our quite differently based subtle body-groups.

Put your findings into your own words. YOU WILL BE ENCHANTED how articulated you will be able to tell and to narrate ALL THESE  „happenings“ with that man you call your father. Because you dedicated so much time to it.
Other children close with their parents as teens and WALK away. You didn’t. So yield the harvest of your dedication to understanding 🥂🍐🍓🥕💚🌱🔭🤫🐚❣️ you’ve earned it to understand!

It may become 
poems, teaching, learning now on another level (which is nearly the same…because fine teachers are ever learning ones..), just random talks that you will be loved for…a n y t h i n g 🎈🍉🌶🍷

And it will become some of the gifts – just as our Janine does🤔🤗🍀🍯 – you are able to donate in your con-versations.
/versare – puor.. con-verse means: to pour together/to pour with; very very beautiful// AND SO YOU PASS FROM SUFFERING TO HELPING TENDERLY AND TO ENJOYING YOUR fine and exquisite feelingbodies-garden(ing./ NOW HOLDING YOU THIS PERSON IN THOSE HALLS WITHIN YOU where he’s unable to to wrong. You MAY find this sometimes silently entertaining.

wishing you well

And if you like it as an exercise: you can teach yourself to really turn their outrageous weapons into their own spaces./just to keep them TO WISH TO BE quiet with you —now you are playing within the rules THEY have among themselves; this starts to teach them. „Love“ is just stupid to them: harmony. They do sense it only within themselves: their own satiety is their highest.—–with your new mastery not annihilating their primitive livelyness, of cause..)

(I think THIS makes our „stupid“ patience: we instinctively know they are subordinated in rank – so we behave patiently and donating and without going into our true forces._and we start doing so with the sweet heart of a child.. then it’s behaviour that will make you loose so much as you become an adult and responsible for others. This is-was my case. And it’s SO pitiful!)

You will start to take on to you your innate forces and brightness when you do not defend yourself but others. THEN you will agree to really put into motion all the art of warfaring you learned, suffering it done to you.

BUT you will never do this out of your own. You will consent to becoming lethal in case of danger to others. And in the end even defend yourself. Because you understand yourself as just part of the ALL you dedicate your heart to. It’s the complete prayer. In a certain sense… just take that lightly ～✨🤗͠🌱❣️🤍