{"id":97712,"date":"2026-03-03T07:59:52","date_gmt":"2026-03-03T06:59:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.orgelimstephansdom.at\/?p=97712"},"modified":"2026-03-03T07:59:52","modified_gmt":"2026-03-03T06:59:52","slug":"nochmals-und-einige-male-vielleicht-anhoeren","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/orgelimstephansdom.at\/?p=97712","title":{"rendered":"Nochmals, und einige Male vielleicht anh\u00f6ren,"},"content":{"rendered":"<pre style=\"padding-left: 160px;\"><span style=\"color: #008000;\">Wenn dich DEIN OPFER gegegenstudiert, und zunehmend locker versteht, \n.\n.\nwovon IN DEINEM Denkschachti NIE eine D\u00e4mmerung durchzuschimern beg-\n.\n.\n<strong>innen<\/strong> je wird, DANN IST \"OPFER\" wohl das falsche Wort, fehl am Platz \n.\n.\nund am.. Ort, der Spitze der W AFF E..l. \n<em><span style=\"color: #008080;\">.\n.\nEs handelt sich viel mehr um eine klassische \"KOAL, WIAG EAM!!\"(A-\n.\n.\nmeise am Boden zu Ameise auf den Elephanten geklettert)-Witz_Situ ation. <span style=\"color: #f0e1e1;\">Grunds\u00e4tzlich_ \u00fcberw\u00e4ltigtes, ausuferndes als solches, Bew\u00e4ltigungsdenken, also Insuffizienzqualm im Schnapsglasl als Gott_bin ichichichich dem und dem...wahn.\n..\n.\n.\n.\n<span style=\"color: #999999;\">Nur in sich gl\u00fccklich, darf die frisch hereinknospende Kindchenbl\u00fcte, f\u00fcr uns bereits Raumende hier, ist Gl\u00fcck\n__\n__\n nur in mir so fehl wie Qual nur in mir. QUAL DANN IN ALLES ZU W\u00dcRGEN, ist der Depp mit Deppenkrone, da soetwas \n__\n__\nnicht Umraum und Raum zu Heilung, der eigenen, zu n\u00fctzen mehr versteht. Und damit als Wesen seine simpelsten \n__\n__\nGeschehensregeln nicht mehr kann (von \"nicht mehr kennt\" brauchma da net amal <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/em><\/span><span style=\"color: #999999;\"><span style=\"caret-color: #999999;\"><i>rede<\/i><\/span><\/span><span style=\"color: #008000;\"><em><span style=\"color: #008080;\"><span style=\"color: #f0e1e1;\">).<\/span><\/span><\/em><span style=\"color: #008080;\"><span style=\"color: #f0e1e1;\"><strong><span style=\"color: #ffcc00;\">Wir pr\u00fcfen - auch unbewu\u00dft - an unserem Herzerklingen, das in Wesensraumerklingen auswellt, ob etwas wahr, echt, nat\u00fcrlich, gut ist. Und wo bleiben da leiben wir.\n\n\n\n<\/span><\/strong><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/pre>\n<p><span style=\"color: #999999;\">der haut Wahrheiten raus, f\u00fcnf in jedem Satz.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #999999;\">DARAUS kann jeder Mensch, der in dieser Erde lebt, sic sein komplettes Bild mitabholen, UND getr\u00f6stet sein, WAS ALLES MIT UNSEREN Wesengesamr\u00e4umen auff\u00fchrbar ist, aufgef\u00fchrt wird, woraus folgt, was wir f\u00fcr sagenhafte Echtgebilde sind.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"&quot;Getting Grounded as a Trauma Based Mind Control Survivor&quot; with Alandra Markman\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/j58HD1763F0?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #999999;\">Die unbewu\u00dfte Menschenverwertung<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #999999;\">ist auf hoher Stufe.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #999999;\">Und sich selbst DA auf die Spur zu kommen, wenn DAS AUFGEHT, dann ist das das Ende aller Unsbeernter, denn dann gehen echt alle Herzmenschen in Rage, ja.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div id=\"panels\" class=\"style-scope ytd-watch-flexy\">\n<div id=\"header\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-section-list-renderer\">\n<div id=\"header\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-title-header-renderer\">\n<div id=\"menu\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-title-header-renderer\">\n<div id=\"top-level-buttons-computed\" class=\"top-level-buttons style-scope ytd-menu-renderer\"><\/div>\n<div id=\"flexible-item-buttons\" class=\"style-scope ytd-menu-renderer\"><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div class=\"stroke style-scope yt-interaction\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"fill style-scope yt-interaction\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div id=\"visibility-button\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-title-header-renderer\">\n<div class=\"yt-spec-button-shape-next__icon\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"yt-spec-touch-feedback-shape__stroke\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"yt-spec-touch-feedback-shape__fill\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div id=\"subheader\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-title-header-renderer\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div id=\"content\" class=\"style-scope ytd-engagement-panel-section-list-renderer\">\n<div id=\"body\" class=\"style-scope ytd-transcript-renderer\"><\/div>\n<div id=\"content\" class=\"style-scope ytd-transcript-renderer\">\n<div id=\"header\" class=\"style-scope ytd-transcript-search-panel-renderer\"><\/div>\n<div id=\"body\" class=\"style-scope ytd-transcript-search-panel-renderer\">\n<div id=\"segments-container\" class=\"style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-list-renderer\">\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 second All right, everybody. I'm very um honored and proud to have Alandre Markman on our stage. He is very much a\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:01<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">All right, everybody. I&#8217;m very um honored and proud to have Alandre Markman on our stage. He is very much a<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 seconds survivor of the MTalk Project or Project Phoenix. Um it's amazing to have him on\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">survivor of the MTalk Project or Project Phoenix. Um it&#8217;s amazing to have him on<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 seconds our stage. You know, he like so many others has been through so much. So, thank you, Alandra.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">our stage. You know, he like so many others has been through so much. So, thank you, Alandra.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 seconds Thanks for having me. Hello. Yes, I'm Alandre Markman. I'm named on the slide.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Thanks for having me. Hello. Yes, I&#8217;m Alandre Markman. I&#8217;m named on the slide.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 seconds Wow. I work today mostly as a deprogrammer.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:30<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Wow. I work today mostly as a deprogrammer.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 seconds So, I help survivors get free, get grounded, get deprogrammed, integrate\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So, I help survivors get free, get grounded, get deprogrammed, integrate<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"42 seconds altars, all that good stuff and I teach meditation\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">altars, all that good stuff and I teach meditation<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"47 seconds and um help anyone get grounded, not just survivors. Um, but being a survivor\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:47<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and um help anyone get grounded, not just survivors. Um, but being a survivor<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"53 seconds myself, it's especially meaningful for me uh to work with other survivors. So,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">myself, it&#8217;s especially meaningful for me uh to work with other survivors. So,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"58 seconds it's probably about half and half with my clientele. Um, half just people of all diverse types of experiences and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">0:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">it&#8217;s probably about half and half with my clientele. Um, half just people of all diverse types of experiences and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 6 seconds half mind control survivors. Whale. Um, yeah, I'll give a brief\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">half mind control survivors. Whale. Um, yeah, I&#8217;ll give a brief<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 13 seconds introduction to myself during the presentation. I'm calling this getting grounded as a trauma-based mind control\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">introduction to myself during the presentation. I&#8217;m calling this getting grounded as a trauma-based mind control<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 19 seconds survivor. Tada. This is a picture from Mount Shasta where I live. This is taken\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:19<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">survivor. Tada. This is a picture from Mount Shasta where I live. This is taken<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 25 seconds from Panther Meadows way up on Mount Shasta. Really nice sunset picture\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:25<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">from Panther Meadows way up on Mount Shasta. Really nice sunset picture<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 31 seconds and kind of a peaceful place to start. Um, I like to use the word trauma based\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and kind of a peaceful place to start. Um, I like to use the word trauma based<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 37 seconds mind control because it's inclusive of all the stuff that we've gone through,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">mind control because it&#8217;s inclusive of all the stuff that we&#8217;ve gone through,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 42 seconds um, including satanic ritual abuse, secret space programs, timeline manipulation,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">um, including satanic ritual abuse, secret space programs, timeline manipulation,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 49 seconds etc. and on and on and on. There are many forms of related abuse and they all\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">etc. and on and on and on. There are many forms of related abuse and they all<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"1 minute, 54 seconds rely on fragmenting people into DID systems, alter systems, and then getting\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">1:54<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">rely on fragmenting people into DID systems, alter systems, and then getting<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes those altars to do things independently of each other and I unconsciously of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">those altars to do things independently of each other and I unconsciously of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 6 seconds each other quite often and moving those altars into different bodies,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">each other quite often and moving those altars into different bodies,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 11 seconds using those altars for purposes that the host would find completely\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:11<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">using those altars for purposes that the host would find completely<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 17 seconds objectionable. So Penny gave a presentation on altars already, so I'm not going to focus on that too much. If\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">objectionable. So Penny gave a presentation on altars already, so I&#8217;m not going to focus on that too much. If<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 23 seconds you're comfortable, do do those survivors in the room, if if you feel comfortable, feel free to raise your\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">you&#8217;re comfortable, do do those survivors in the room, if if you feel comfortable, feel free to raise your<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 29 seconds hands. Just want to see hello. Hi. Hi.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">hands. Just want to see hello. Hi. Hi.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 34 seconds Okay. Three out of 14. [laughter]\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Okay. Three out of 14. [laughter]<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 40 seconds Okay. Okay. Well, um, for those non-s survivors here, this can also hopefully\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:40<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Okay. Okay. Well, um, for those non-s survivors here, this can also hopefully<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 45 seconds help you understand how to help survivors. And I think a lot of this applies to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">help you understand how to help survivors. And I think a lot of this applies to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 50 seconds anybody. The the sort of stuff I'm going to talk about could help anybody get grounded regardless of your life\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">anybody. The the sort of stuff I&#8217;m going to talk about could help anybody get grounded regardless of your life<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"2 minutes, 56 seconds circumstances. Um, so I hope this will be of benefit for allies and friends and the whole\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">circumstances. Um, so I hope this will be of benefit for allies and friends and the whole<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 3 seconds community. Uh, I'll just give a little intro to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">community. Uh, I&#8217;ll just give a little intro to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 8 seconds myself. My story is very complex. Um, I've done about 30 interviews at this\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">myself. My story is very complex. Um, I&#8217;ve done about 30 interviews at this<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 14 seconds point and I still feel like I've barely scratched the surface. So, I thought I would just introduce myself. A lot of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">point and I still feel like I&#8217;ve barely scratched the surface. So, I thought I would just introduce myself. A lot of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 20 seconds y'all are reading ahead of me. That's fine. Um, I was initially born as a guy named Max McPeek and brought into\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">y&#8217;all are reading ahead of me. That&#8217;s fine. Um, I was initially born as a guy named Max McPeek and brought into<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 28 seconds Rainbow Bridge, which was Monttoque as most people have heard about it in 1974.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Rainbow Bridge, which was Monttoque as most people have heard about it in 1974.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 34 seconds I had multiple age regressions in that context and so my consciousness was moved to quite a few different places.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">I had multiple age regressions in that context and so my consciousness was moved to quite a few different places.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 42 seconds The zeta reticulence faked my death in the 80s um and brought me out of Montalk\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">The zeta reticulence faked my death in the 80s um and brought me out of Montalk<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 48 seconds under those pretenses. Um, however, that was only the beginning of the next phase of abuse, unfortunately\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:48<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">under those pretenses. Um, however, that was only the beginning of the next phase of abuse, unfortunately<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"3 minutes, 56 seconds because I was moved into this body where I was born as Alan Andre into a bloodline luciferian family and it was\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">3:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because I was moved into this body where I was born as Alan Andre into a bloodline luciferian family and it was<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 3 seconds intended that I would be a handler myself, that I would be a programmer. So most of my abuse in this body was geared\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">intended that I would be a handler myself, that I would be a programmer. So most of my abuse in this body was geared<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 11 seconds towards making me into a programmer, making me work on others. And I became\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:11<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">towards making me into a programmer, making me work on others. And I became<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 17 seconds really, really good at it. This is part of why I work as a deprogrammer today\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">really, really good at it. This is part of why I work as a deprogrammer today<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 22 seconds because I was trained to be a programmer and I use that information for the opposite purpose\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because I was trained to be a programmer and I use that information for the opposite purpose<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 28 seconds from which it was intended. So that's part of my story in this body.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">from which it was intended. So that&#8217;s part of my story in this body.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 34 seconds Um, but this body also has age regressions and multiple timelines. I'm for simplicity sake I'm just going to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Um, but this body also has age regressions and multiple timelines. I&#8217;m for simplicity sake I&#8217;m just going to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 40 seconds leave that out for now because this is more about getting grounded. I got free from the cult and the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:40<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">leave that out for now because this is more about getting grounded. I got free from the cult and the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 46 seconds programs in 2003, assisted by the Antarians. These are eighth density\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">programs in 2003, assisted by the Antarians. These are eighth density<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 51 seconds beings. These are my special friends. Um, often times they appear like praying\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:51<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">beings. These are my special friends. Um, often times they appear like praying<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"4 minutes, 57 seconds mantis beings. They're benevolent mantis beings. Sometimes they also appear as do-headed humanoids. Speaking of dog\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">4:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">mantis beings. They&#8217;re benevolent mantis beings. Sometimes they also appear as do-headed humanoids. Speaking of dog<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 4 seconds men, uh, Jessica's not here, so she would love that. Um, but yeah, mantids\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:04<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">men, uh, Jessica&#8217;s not here, so she would love that. Um, but yeah, mantids<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 10 seconds and dog people are generally the physical appearance of Ontarians, although they can take different forms\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and dog people are generally the physical appearance of Ontarians, although they can take different forms<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 16 seconds because they're free from physical density. They were one of the main reasons that I\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:16<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because they&#8217;re free from physical density. They were one of the main reasons that I<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 21 seconds got free. They helped orchestrate my escape. And I also had a walk-in into this body who calls herself Asandra. So\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">got free. They helped orchestrate my escape. And I also had a walk-in into this body who calls herself Asandra. So<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 29 seconds that's why we wanted to add the Andra to our name to represent her and all walk\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that&#8217;s why we wanted to add the Andra to our name to represent her and all walk<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 35 seconds together as an integrated being. Um Asandre is basically an ET as well\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">together as an integrated being. Um Asandre is basically an ET as well<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 41 seconds from the area of Cassiopia. Cassiopia Gam is the star where she's from. Uh in\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:41<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">from the area of Cassiopia. Cassiopia Gam is the star where she&#8217;s from. Uh in<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 49 seconds 2017 we decided to change our name alto together to include everyone inside as\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">2017 we decided to change our name alto together to include everyone inside as<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"5 minutes, 54 seconds United Council. So sometimes we refer to ourselves as the council of Alandra and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">5:54<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">United Council. So sometimes we refer to ourselves as the council of Alandra and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes to share our truth of interbeing. Um the label of interbeing actually came\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to share our truth of interbeing. Um the label of interbeing actually came<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 5 seconds from the Sasquatch. So uh thanks Sasquatch. Um yeah there are some really good\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:05<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">from the Sasquatch. So uh thanks Sasquatch. Um yeah there are some really good<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 12 seconds friends of mine and that's how they usually refer to me as an interbeing. So I I took that from them and I I think\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:12<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">friends of mine and that&#8217;s how they usually refer to me as an interbeing. So I I took that from them and I I think<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 19 seconds it's an accurate label. So, uh, under the business name Entarian\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:19<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">it&#8217;s an accurate label. So, uh, under the business name Entarian<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 24 seconds Journeys, I've been helping other survivors heal since 2018. It's been really good. Uh, I have a lot of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:24<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Journeys, I&#8217;ve been helping other survivors heal since 2018. It&#8217;s been really good. Uh, I have a lot of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 31 seconds business. There are a lot of survivors. Um, and they basically have very few\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">business. There are a lot of survivors. Um, and they basically have very few<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 37 seconds places to go. You know, there are a few of us public survivors like myself to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">places to go. You know, there are a few of us public survivors like myself to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 43 seconds name a few others. Anukica Lucas, Max Loen, Misha Johnston, who was here last year. She does hypnotherapy. Um, it's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">name a few others. Anukica Lucas, Max Loen, Misha Johnston, who was here last year. She does hypnotherapy. Um, it&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 50 seconds pretty much other survivors who are providing these critical services because the mainstream therapy\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">pretty much other survivors who are providing these critical services because the mainstream therapy<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"6 minutes, 56 seconds profession or the lamestream therapy profession, they don't get training to deal with trauma- based mind control.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">6:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">profession or the lamestream therapy profession, they don&#8217;t get training to deal with trauma- based mind control.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 3 seconds It's just not part of their education, which is deeply unfortunate. Um, but of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">It&#8217;s just not part of their education, which is deeply unfortunate. Um, but of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 9 seconds course there's a mass conspiracy, so stuff like that is going to be very hard to teach in an institutional context.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">course there&#8217;s a mass conspiracy, so stuff like that is going to be very hard to teach in an institutional context.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 17 seconds Anyway, this is me in a nutshell. So, I had this huge journey and now I help\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Anyway, this is me in a nutshell. So, I had this huge journey and now I help<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 22 seconds people with their huge journeys and that's uh that's where I'm coming from. The first one is continued abuse or\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people with their huge journeys and that&#8217;s uh that&#8217;s where I&#8217;m coming from. The first one is continued abuse or<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 30 seconds program service in the present. We don't even know that we're still in the programs. It's often unconscious.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:30<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">program service in the present. We don&#8217;t even know that we&#8217;re still in the programs. It&#8217;s often unconscious.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 38 seconds that that's extremely difficult. If you're trying to go in and heal past trauma and get grounded, but every night\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that that&#8217;s extremely difficult. If you&#8217;re trying to go in and heal past trauma and get grounded, but every night<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 44 seconds when you go to sleep, you're getting abducted again and getting more trauma. That makes grounding really, really\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">when you go to sleep, you&#8217;re getting abducted again and getting more trauma. That makes grounding really, really<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 50 seconds hard. Accompanying that are memory blocks, denial, and various kinds of self-d\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">hard. Accompanying that are memory blocks, denial, and various kinds of self-d<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"7 minutes, 57 seconds disbelief. So often when we get these memories in the first place, we don't know what to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">7:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">disbelief. So often when we get these memories in the first place, we don&#8217;t know what to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 3 seconds do with them or how to categorize them. That can't be from this life. That must\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">do with them or how to categorize them. That can&#8217;t be from this life. That must<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 8 seconds be from a past life or a parallel life. I have visions of myself on a spaceship.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">be from a past life or a parallel life. I have visions of myself on a spaceship.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 15 seconds But oh, that must be my Padian ship in a different dimension. And you know,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">But oh, that must be my Padian ship in a different dimension. And you know,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 20 seconds that's a more kind of a little bit more socially acceptable thing to have\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that&#8217;s a more kind of a little bit more socially acceptable thing to have<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 25 seconds happen. Um, but sadly, a lot of these things that come back, a lot of these\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:25<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">happen. Um, but sadly, a lot of these things that come back, a lot of these<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 31 seconds memories are from this body. Oh, this body was in a spaceship. non-consensually. Well, that changes\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">memories are from this body. Oh, this body was in a spaceship. non-consensually. Well, that changes<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 37 seconds things. Um, another obvious thing that gets in the way of grounding are addictive\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">things. Um, another obvious thing that gets in the way of grounding are addictive<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 43 seconds patterns with substances, sex, food, work, etc. Pretty much anything that\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">patterns with substances, sex, food, work, etc. Pretty much anything that<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 50 seconds brings pleasure or numbs pain can become an addiction. So, this is just\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">brings pleasure or numbs pain can become an addiction. So, this is just<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"8 minutes, 55 seconds universal. Um, the most obvious ones would be alcohol and drugs. Um, but I'm including\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">8:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">universal. Um, the most obvious ones would be alcohol and drugs. Um, but I&#8217;m including<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 3 seconds these other more normal things because they also play into it. Basically, every program survivor that I've ever worked\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">these other more normal things because they also play into it. Basically, every program survivor that I&#8217;ve ever worked<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 10 seconds with has had some form of sex addiction. It just goes with being sex trafficked\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">with has had some form of sex addiction. It just goes with being sex trafficked<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 15 seconds as a young person. Um, and being in some very unhealthy attachment patterns to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">as a young person. Um, and being in some very unhealthy attachment patterns to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 22 seconds say the least. Um, when you're in the programs, you know, people are bonded through trauma, stress, fear. Positive\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">say the least. Um, when you&#8217;re in the programs, you know, people are bonded through trauma, stress, fear. Positive<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 29 seconds bonds that are consciously chosen are almost unheard of in a program context.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">bonds that are consciously chosen are almost unheard of in a program context.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 35 seconds In a satanic context or a or a space program context, you don't really get to choose your own relationships, even your\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">In a satanic context or a or a space program context, you don&#8217;t really get to choose your own relationships, even your<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 42 seconds relationship to your own body. You really don't get to choose very much about how you go about that\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">relationship to your own body. You really don&#8217;t get to choose very much about how you go about that<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 47 seconds relationship. So, when we get free or when we're still working to get free, most often we have\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:47<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">relationship. So, when we get free or when we&#8217;re still working to get free, most often we have<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 53 seconds these addictions. Another big obvious one and part of the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">these addictions. Another big obvious one and part of the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"9 minutes, 58 seconds reason we're here is media and cultural censorship. You know, it's very rare to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">9:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">reason we&#8217;re here is media and cultural censorship. You know, it&#8217;s very rare to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 4 seconds find people who can even believe us, much less support us. So that makes\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:04<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">find people who can even believe us, much less support us. So that makes<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 10 seconds grounding really hard. We are social beings. We want our reality to be shared with others. And this makes us very\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">grounding really hard. We are social beings. We want our reality to be shared with others. And this makes us very<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 18 seconds lonely. It puts us in our own space at those very moments when we should be connecting to people the most, moments\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:18<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">lonely. It puts us in our own space at those very moments when we should be connecting to people the most, moments<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 25 seconds when we really need others to be healing with because of the s censorship. It's very hard to find them. And\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:25<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">when we really need others to be healing with because of the s censorship. It&#8217;s very hard to find them. And<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 31 seconds unfortunately, our our family, our friends typically, like the vast\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">unfortunately, our our family, our friends typically, like the vast<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 37 seconds majority of the time, are hostile to our healing process, if not active handlers\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">majority of the time, are hostile to our healing process, if not active handlers<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 43 seconds themselves. So that makes grounding hard. [laughter]\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">themselves. So that makes grounding hard. [laughter]<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 48 seconds If you're still in contact with people who are handling you consciously or unconsciously, usually unconsciously,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:48<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">If you&#8217;re still in contact with people who are handling you consciously or unconsciously, usually unconsciously,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"10 minutes, 56 seconds then we have the next bullet point, obvious mental and physical illnesses.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">10:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">then we have the next bullet point, obvious mental and physical illnesses.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 2 seconds So on the mental level, we're usually dealing at least with CPTTSD, complex post-traumatic stress disorder,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So on the mental level, we&#8217;re usually dealing at least with CPTTSD, complex post-traumatic stress disorder,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 9 seconds if anybody doesn't know that one. DID, dissociative identity disorder. That's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">if anybody doesn&#8217;t know that one. DID, dissociative identity disorder. That&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 14 seconds what they used to call MPD, multiple personality disorder. When you're split up into altars,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">what they used to call MPD, multiple personality disorder. When you&#8217;re split up into altars,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 21 seconds it can be diagnosed, that's not funny, can be diagnosed in this way. Um, a\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">it can be diagnosed, that&#8217;s not funny, can be diagnosed in this way. Um, a<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 26 seconds whole bunch of other mental mental illnesses are also created intentionally by our cult handlers. Um, I wanted to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">whole bunch of other mental mental illnesses are also created intentionally by our cult handlers. Um, I wanted to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 33 seconds bring up personality disorders specifically are often created. borderline personality disorder,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:33<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">bring up personality disorders specifically are often created. borderline personality disorder,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 39 seconds narcissistic personality disorder. These are extremely common in survivors. These\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:39<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">narcissistic personality disorder. These are extremely common in survivors. These<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 44 seconds are intentionally created disorders. Um because partly because these are\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">are intentionally created disorders. Um because partly because these are<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 50 seconds organic reactions to trauma. And so what the cult and the space\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">organic reactions to trauma. And so what the cult and the space<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"11 minutes, 55 seconds program people do is they weaponize those organic reactions and they give\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">11:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">program people do is they weaponize those organic reactions and they give<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes them more structure and they turn them against the person so that you wind up with this very deep very complex\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">them more structure and they turn them against the person so that you wind up with this very deep very complex<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 7 seconds personality disorder. It's very hard to unravel on the physical level. We're also\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">personality disorder. It&#8217;s very hard to unravel on the physical level. We&#8217;re also<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 13 seconds dealing with um pretty typically autoimmune disorders. Um for instance uh\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">dealing with um pretty typically autoimmune disorders. Um for instance uh<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 18 seconds chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, these are very common when you've been age regressed. It's extremely hard on\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:18<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, these are very common when you&#8217;ve been age regressed. It&#8217;s extremely hard on<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 26 seconds the body and it creates these long-term chronic health issues which make it very\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the body and it creates these long-term chronic health issues which make it very<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 31 seconds hard to get grounded again because if you haven't noticed, our health system really sucks especially for chronic\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">hard to get grounded again because if you haven&#8217;t noticed, our health system really sucks especially for chronic<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 38 seconds issues. [laughter] Um and then you have vaccine injuries\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">issues. [laughter] Um and then you have vaccine injuries<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 44 seconds so-called which everybody's going through the entire culture. Um then some other things um the more existential\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">so-called which everybody&#8217;s going through the entire culture. Um then some other things um the more existential<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 52 seconds things temporal displacement age regressions and progressions. This is very hard stuff to wrap our minds\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">things temporal displacement age regressions and progressions. This is very hard stuff to wrap our minds<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"12 minutes, 58 seconds around. Most of us we just have one birthday\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">12:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">around. Most of us we just have one birthday<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 3 seconds and and it's a place where we can ground. It's something we can safely identify with.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and and it&#8217;s a place where we can ground. It&#8217;s something we can safely identify with.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 9 seconds For an age regression or progression survivor, it's you. It's very hard to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">For an age regression or progression survivor, it&#8217;s you. It&#8217;s very hard to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 14 seconds ground in your own life story. You have memories that don't even fit in with your linear sense of your own life.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">ground in your own life story. You have memories that don&#8217;t even fit in with your linear sense of your own life.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 21 seconds That's very ungrounding. Okay, just going to keep going to my bullet points. Um, spiritual bypassing\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">That&#8217;s very ungrounding. Okay, just going to keep going to my bullet points. Um, spiritual bypassing<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 29 seconds or intellectual bypassing of emotion. Okay, this is another one that's a a mass culture problem. It's not specific\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">or intellectual bypassing of emotion. Okay, this is another one that&#8217;s a a mass culture problem. It&#8217;s not specific<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 36 seconds to survivors, but it's especially exaggerated in the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:36<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to survivors, but it&#8217;s especially exaggerated in the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 41 seconds case of survivors because if we're going to get into our feelings, they're overwhelming. It's very, very common for\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:41<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">case of survivors because if we&#8217;re going to get into our feelings, they&#8217;re overwhelming. It&#8217;s very, very common for<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 47 seconds us as survivors to be in a pattern of feeling absolutely every little thing,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:47<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">us as survivors to be in a pattern of feeling absolutely every little thing,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 52 seconds being extremely hyper sensitive or and usually maybe on the same day, feeling\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">being extremely hyper sensitive or and usually maybe on the same day, feeling<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"13 minutes, 58 seconds completely numb to everything, feeling no emotion. We have extreme relationships with our emotion and we\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">13:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">completely numb to everything, feeling no emotion. We have extreme relationships with our emotion and we<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 6 seconds find ways to normalize that. Um, spiritual bypassing is one of the most obvious ways like, oh, I don't feel my\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">find ways to normalize that. Um, spiritual bypassing is one of the most obvious ways like, oh, I don&#8217;t feel my<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 12 seconds feelings. I just breathe into my spiritual practice, whatever it is. Um,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:12<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">feelings. I just breathe into my spiritual practice, whatever it is. Um,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 18 seconds and that can keep us going for years without actually getting into our more difficult emotions, including shame,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:18<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and that can keep us going for years without actually getting into our more difficult emotions, including shame,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 24 seconds guilt, self-lame, martyr programming of various kinds. I'm not going to get into\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:24<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">guilt, self-lame, martyr programming of various kinds. I&#8217;m not going to get into<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 29 seconds every specific thing because I just want to talk in general about grounding. Um, but I think about these things every day\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">every specific thing because I just want to talk in general about grounding. Um, but I think about these things every day<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 37 seconds and um, I hope this will start also some more specific conversations.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and um, I hope this will start also some more specific conversations.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 42 seconds Um, lastly on my bullet point list, I'm just putting material pressure, especially money and housing pressure.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Um, lastly on my bullet point list, I&#8217;m just putting material pressure, especially money and housing pressure.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 49 seconds So when we get out of the programs, we are betrayed by our family. We usually\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So when we get out of the programs, we are betrayed by our family. We usually<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"14 minutes, 55 seconds have to disconnect from our family of origin. We usually have no resources. We're usually broke and basically on our\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">14:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have to disconnect from our family of origin. We usually have no resources. We&#8217;re usually broke and basically on our<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 3 seconds own. And when you're on your own in this capitalist system, it's really, really\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">own. And when you&#8217;re on your own in this capitalist system, it&#8217;s really, really<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 8 seconds hard. It's, you know, when an entry-level job, as they still call it,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">hard. It&#8217;s, you know, when an entry-level job, as they still call it,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 14 seconds does not provide actual sustenance for an adult person. So then you have normal wage slavery.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">does not provide actual sustenance for an adult person. So then you have normal wage slavery.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 22 seconds But in addition to that, our not only is our family hostile, but they're often\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">But in addition to that, our not only is our family hostile, but they&#8217;re often<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 27 seconds attacking us and trying to steal from us. Uh, so we have outright theft. We\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">attacking us and trying to steal from us. Uh, so we have outright theft. We<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 32 seconds have financial and legal attacks. I know many survivors who are bound up in various lawsuits for no real reason.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have financial and legal attacks. I know many survivors who are bound up in various lawsuits for no real reason.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 40 seconds It's basically just another form of attack from the cult. They have pretty much infinite resources for infinite\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:40<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">It&#8217;s basically just another form of attack from the cult. They have pretty much infinite resources for infinite<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 46 seconds lawyers and they apply a lot of pressure to survivors. So it can be just very\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">lawyers and they apply a lot of pressure to survivors. So it can be just very<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"15 minutes, 52 seconds hard to ground just on a normal level, you know, just to pay rent and such can be very hard. So I wanted to name that.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">15:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">hard to ground just on a normal level, you know, just to pay rent and such can be very hard. So I wanted to name that.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes On the positive side, what helps with grounding? The short answer is that anything that\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">On the positive side, what helps with grounding? The short answer is that anything that<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 6 seconds helps a non-s survivor with grounding is probably going to help a survivor with grounding as well. So we are by no means\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">helps a non-s survivor with grounding is probably going to help a survivor with grounding as well. So we are by no means<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 14 seconds in an exclusive category. Um that said, I'll go through some of the basic things\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">in an exclusive category. Um that said, I&#8217;ll go through some of the basic things<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 19 seconds that we think about that I think about. The first one on my list is always a body mind awareness practice.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:19<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that we think about that I think about. The first one on my list is always a body mind awareness practice.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 27 seconds For example, meditation, yoga, breath work, martial arts, dance, sports,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">For example, meditation, yoga, breath work, martial arts, dance, sports,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 34 seconds anything to reclaim the body, get in the body. All dissociation is based on leaving the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">anything to reclaim the body, get in the body. All dissociation is based on leaving the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 41 seconds body in some form. And all reassociation is based on getting back into the body.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:41<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">body in some form. And all reassociation is based on getting back into the body.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 47 seconds So we want to reassociate not to disassociate. So the direction will be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:47<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So we want to reassociate not to disassociate. So the direction will be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"16 minutes, 53 seconds into the body. Please and thank you. Uh next is any sort of self-expression,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">16:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">into the body. Please and thank you. Uh next is any sort of self-expression,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes journaling. I I put journaling, drawing, singing, self-expression and creativity\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">journaling. I I put journaling, drawing, singing, self-expression and creativity<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 5 seconds of all kinds, whether it's related to the abuse or not. So, some of this is\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:05<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">of all kinds, whether it&#8217;s related to the abuse or not. So, some of this is<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 11 seconds going to be very helpful for getting to memories. Um, I have a lot of different clients\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:11<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">going to be very helpful for getting to memories. Um, I have a lot of different clients<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 17 seconds who like to uh paint pictures that have to do with their abuse or they make extended journal entries and they'll\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">who like to uh paint pictures that have to do with their abuse or they make extended journal entries and they&#8217;ll<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 23 seconds bring the journal entry into a session with me. Um, so obviously if it is\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">bring the journal entry into a session with me. Um, so obviously if it is<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 28 seconds related to the abuse, that's very very helpful for integrating memories. At the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">related to the abuse, that&#8217;s very very helpful for integrating memories. At the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 33 seconds same time, even when it's not related to the abuse, just having that channel open\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:33<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">same time, even when it&#8217;s not related to the abuse, just having that channel open<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 38 seconds kind of makes you generally a more grounded person. It attracts more of your personality into your body. And\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">kind of makes you generally a more grounded person. It attracts more of your personality into your body. And<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 46 seconds again, a lot of our host core personality was pushed out of the body. So anything we can do to bring our core\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">again, a lot of our host core personality was pushed out of the body. So anything we can do to bring our core<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 53 seconds self our host self in did terms the host personalities\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">self our host self in did terms the host personalities<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"17 minutes, 59 seconds well has different meanings but generally considered the organic personality of the body mind. So your your birth personality we want to bring\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">17:59<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">well has different meanings but generally considered the organic personality of the body mind. So your your birth personality we want to bring<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 7 seconds that in and we want to dissolve all the false aspects of personality. So\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that in and we want to dissolve all the false aspects of personality. So<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 13 seconds self-expression is very useful for that. Next is obvious but also kind of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">self-expression is very useful for that. Next is obvious but also kind of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 19 seconds elusive. Getting into healthy routines with sleep, food, exercise, workflow,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:19<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">elusive. Getting into healthy routines with sleep, food, exercise, workflow,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 25 seconds etc. We were raised to be slave drivers to ourselves.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:25<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">etc. We were raised to be slave drivers to ourselves.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 30 seconds When we get free, we're usually still in a slave mentality and we're expecting ourselves to perform under absurdly\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:30<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">When we get free, we&#8217;re usually still in a slave mentality and we&#8217;re expecting ourselves to perform under absurdly<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 37 seconds difficult circumstances just like we did when we were growing up or on the other\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">difficult circumstances just like we did when we were growing up or on the other<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 42 seconds timelines or last night when we were abducted. Um, so it can be really hard to bring\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">timelines or last night when we were abducted. Um, so it can be really hard to bring<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 50 seconds into our daily life routine here on Earth, you know, good sleep rhythm, good food rhythm, exercise, workflow. I mean,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">into our daily life routine here on Earth, you know, good sleep rhythm, good food rhythm, exercise, workflow. I mean,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"18 minutes, 57 seconds add anything you like to that list to get yourself into a healthy routine with\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">18:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">add anything you like to that list to get yourself into a healthy routine with<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 3 seconds is always grounding. Another obvious one is to work regularly with healers, therapists, shamans, and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">is always grounding. Another obvious one is to work regularly with healers, therapists, shamans, and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 11 seconds other healers that understand trauma. I I wanted to include they don't have to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:11<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">other healers that understand trauma. I I wanted to include they don&#8217;t have to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 17 seconds understand trauma- based mind control specifically. It does help, but if they\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">understand trauma- based mind control specifically. It does help, but if they<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 23 seconds understand trauma, they understand trauma. I mean, anybody who's traumainformed will have the capacity to be at least a\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">understand trauma, they understand trauma. I mean, anybody who&#8217;s traumainformed will have the capacity to be at least a<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 30 seconds little bit helpful to you as a survivor. Obviously, it's much much better if they\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:30<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">little bit helpful to you as a survivor. Obviously, it&#8217;s much much better if they<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 35 seconds have the full mental picture and they know what trauma- based mind control is and how to work with it. But sadly,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have the full mental picture and they know what trauma- based mind control is and how to work with it. But sadly,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 42 seconds people who know about these things are still in a in a strong minority. Um, I'll just give an example for myself. I\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people who know about these things are still in a in a strong minority. Um, I&#8217;ll just give an example for myself. I<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 49 seconds had a lot of help from a craniosacral practitioner. And this woman did magic\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">had a lot of help from a craniosacral practitioner. And this woman did magic<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"19 minutes, 55 seconds with me. She helped me unload so much trauma. She usually had no awareness of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">19:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">with me. She helped me unload so much trauma. She usually had no awareness of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes what I was releasing. She had no personal context for it at all. But it\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">what I was releasing. She had no personal context for it at all. But it<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 6 seconds was very, very helpful for me. It helped move a lot of stuff from my body. So I want to give that one example. I also\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">was very, very helpful for me. It helped move a lot of stuff from my body. So I want to give that one example. I also<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 13 seconds went through a a trauma treatment program um at a basically a domestic violence treatment center. A lot of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">went through a a trauma treatment program um at a basically a domestic violence treatment center. A lot of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 20 seconds ritual abuse falls under domestic violence and that program was really useful to me. Um they still didn't\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">ritual abuse falls under domestic violence and that program was really useful to me. Um they still didn&#8217;t<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 26 seconds understand ritual abuse but I got what I could from it.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">understand ritual abuse but I got what I could from it.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 31 seconds Um, okay. Other things, cultivating healthy friendships, relationships, and community that feel nourishing and are\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Um, okay. Other things, cultivating healthy friendships, relationships, and community that feel nourishing and are<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 38 seconds not recreating toxic dynamics from the abuse. This can be hard. I mean, we all\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">not recreating toxic dynamics from the abuse. This can be hard. I mean, we all<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 44 seconds have to go through years and years of loneliness. um just as a necessary part\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have to go through years and years of loneliness. um just as a necessary part<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 49 seconds of healing. We have to completely recalibrate our system to understand what is a green flag, what is a red flag\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">of healing. We have to completely recalibrate our system to understand what is a green flag, what is a red flag<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"20 minutes, 56 seconds because it's all been mixed up very deep in our body mind. I'll have another\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">20:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because it&#8217;s all been mixed up very deep in our body mind. I&#8217;ll have another<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 1 second slide on that towards the end about relationships. Um but um at first it can be really really\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:01<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">slide on that towards the end about relationships. Um but um at first it can be really really<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 8 seconds lonely and it can feel like a healthy friendship is not even a possible thing\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">lonely and it can feel like a healthy friendship is not even a possible thing<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 13 seconds but it is possible. Um, non-s survivor friends are especially helpful for this\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">but it is possible. Um, non-s survivor friends are especially helpful for this<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 19 seconds because they do things kind of unconsciously that we never learn to do as survivors. So, it's very helpful to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:19<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because they do things kind of unconsciously that we never learn to do as survivors. So, it&#8217;s very helpful to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 26 seconds observe them, how they create bonds and build trust. Okay. Also, commitments, healthy\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">observe them, how they create bonds and build trust. Okay. Also, commitments, healthy<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 33 seconds commitments, um, for example, to work, career, and personal projects that feel\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:33<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">commitments, um, for example, to work, career, and personal projects that feel<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 38 seconds nourishing and not like a new form of enslavement. This may include public disclosure work,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">nourishing and not like a new form of enslavement. This may include public disclosure work,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 44 seconds but it does not have to. So, if we go public, it's great. As far as I'm\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">but it does not have to. So, if we go public, it&#8217;s great. As far as I&#8217;m<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 50 seconds concerned, the more people that get up on this stage, the better. That's that's what I would like to see. Um, but we're\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">concerned, the more people that get up on this stage, the better. That&#8217;s that&#8217;s what I would like to see. Um, but we&#8217;re<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"21 minutes, 57 seconds all in different circumstances and we all have different personalities. Um, and so your work as a free person may or\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">21:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">all in different circumstances and we all have different personalities. Um, and so your work as a free person may or<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 3 seconds may not have anything to do with trauma based mind control. if if you do no disclosure work at all, you're still\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">may not have anything to do with trauma based mind control. if if you do no disclosure work at all, you&#8217;re still<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 10 seconds healing as a survivor. Like you're still doing your thing. It's all valid. Um, so\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">healing as a survivor. Like you&#8217;re still doing your thing. It&#8217;s all valid. Um, so<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 17 seconds I just want to say that if it feels like it's bringing you life and not pushing you away from life, I know all this\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">I just want to say that if it feels like it&#8217;s bringing you life and not pushing you away from life, I know all this<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 24 seconds stuff is so obvious, but it's just nice to put into words so we can start to ground it into our reality. And it's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:24<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">stuff is so obvious, but it&#8217;s just nice to put into words so we can start to ground it into our reality. And it&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 30 seconds easy to overlook when we're dealing with such complex trauma, such complex reality. it's hard to remember all this\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:30<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">easy to overlook when we&#8217;re dealing with such complex trauma, such complex reality. it&#8217;s hard to remember all this<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 37 seconds basic stuff and to talk about it. So that's why I wanted to talk about it.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">basic stuff and to talk about it. So that&#8217;s why I wanted to talk about it.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 43 seconds Okay. Um I want to talk a little bit about how to identify with the trauma. Speaking of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Okay. Um I want to talk a little bit about how to identify with the trauma. Speaking of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 51 seconds um whether it's part of your life as a social person, whether it's part of your public life or not, we all have to go\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:51<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">um whether it&#8217;s part of your life as a social person, whether it&#8217;s part of your public life or not, we all have to go<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"22 minutes, 57 seconds through this identification issue and we all have to kind of set\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">22:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">through this identification issue and we all have to kind of set<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 3 seconds boundaries for ourselves and decide what's right for us to identify with,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">boundaries for ourselves and decide what&#8217;s right for us to identify with,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 8 seconds what's right for us to talk about and think about. I just want to point out some real basic things over and under\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">what&#8217;s right for us to talk about and think about. I just want to point out some real basic things over and under<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 15 seconds identification. So overidentifying um would be the first one. Normalizing\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">identification. So overidentifying um would be the first one. Normalizing<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 21 seconds or glorifying SSP service or p privileged cult roles. Treating the life\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">or glorifying SSP service or p privileged cult roles. Treating the life<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 26 seconds up there as more real or important than this one. This is a really hard one. Um\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">up there as more real or important than this one. This is a really hard one. Um<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 32 seconds because we put years and years, decades of our lives, our effort, our heart and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">because we put years and years, decades of our lives, our effort, our heart and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 38 seconds soul into our service as a soldier or sometimes in in satanic cults as a high\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">soul into our service as a soldier or sometimes in in satanic cults as a high<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 45 seconds priest or a priestess. Like this is serious training. This is no joke. So I don't want to um overlook that at all.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">priest or a priestess. Like this is serious training. This is no joke. So I don&#8217;t want to um overlook that at all.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 52 seconds There's serious discipline and serious commitment involved in these roles that we were in.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">There&#8217;s serious discipline and serious commitment involved in these roles that we were in.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"23 minutes, 58 seconds but it's no more or less real than this life as a free person on earth. Um, so I\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">23:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">but it&#8217;s no more or less real than this life as a free person on earth. Um, so I<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 6 seconds just want to point that out. That's overidentifying. Underdifying would be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">just want to point that out. That&#8217;s overidentifying. Underdifying would be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 12 seconds minimizing or avoiding the impact of your service on your life. For example,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:12<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">minimizing or avoiding the impact of your service on your life. For example,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 17 seconds who I am up there has nothing to do with me here. Trying to go back to who you\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">who I am up there has nothing to do with me here. Trying to go back to who you<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 22 seconds were before you were aware of the abuse. So whether you go public or not, you\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">were before you were aware of the abuse. So whether you go public or not, you<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 27 seconds have to be honest about what's happening in your life. Um, and unfortunately our\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have to be honest about what&#8217;s happening in your life. Um, and unfortunately our<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 34 seconds culture makes it very, very easy to just slip out of awareness of the abuse and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">culture makes it very, very easy to just slip out of awareness of the abuse and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 40 seconds act as if nothing happened. This is a really subtle trap that a lot of us have to go through as survivors. Um, and we\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:40<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">act as if nothing happened. This is a really subtle trap that a lot of us have to go through as survivors. Um, and we<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 48 seconds have to make a point of making time for this in our lives, even though it's horrifically painful. When we make time\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:48<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have to make a point of making time for this in our lives, even though it&#8217;s horrifically painful. When we make time<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"24 minutes, 55 seconds for that, we're being true to ourselves. We're enhancing our integrity. We're being honest, and that brings us more\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">24:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">for that, we&#8217;re being true to ourselves. We&#8217;re enhancing our integrity. We&#8217;re being honest, and that brings us more<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 1 second into the flow of life. So, we want to avoid underidentification as much as\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:01<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">into the flow of life. So, we want to avoid underidentification as much as<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 7 seconds overidentification. We all do both of these things to survive, and it's common to do them at\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">overidentification. We all do both of these things to survive, and it&#8217;s common to do them at<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 13 seconds the same time. This is part of the cognitive dissonance and mind control going on in the larger society. So\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the same time. This is part of the cognitive dissonance and mind control going on in the larger society. So<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 20 seconds society at large for a moment has us as a morbid\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">society at large for a moment has us as a morbid<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 26 seconds fascination. Oh my god, this strange and frightening thing is happening or they\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">fascination. Oh my god, this strange and frightening thing is happening or they<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 31 seconds ignore us completely. So either we're part of some freak show or we're\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">ignore us completely. So either we&#8217;re part of some freak show or we&#8217;re<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 37 seconds invisible. Unfortunately, that's just how the culture is at this time. So, it's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">invisible. Unfortunately, that&#8217;s just how the culture is at this time. So, it&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 42 seconds important to be real about that. Um, and as much as we can to avoid internalizing\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">important to be real about that. Um, and as much as we can to avoid internalizing<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 48 seconds that in internalizing that extreme duality and to just be our own people\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:48<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">that in internalizing that extreme duality and to just be our own people<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"25 minutes, 53 seconds and to be aware that just to survive, we're going to be overidentified with our trauma and we're going to be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">25:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and to be aware that just to survive, we&#8217;re going to be overidentified with our trauma and we&#8217;re going to be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes underidentified with it with it. All of us, this is a normal part of the healing process and we all go through waves\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">underidentified with it with it. All of us, this is a normal part of the healing process and we all go through waves<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 7 seconds where it's more or less important to whatever we're dealing with in [music] our present life at this moment.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">where it&#8217;s more or less important to whatever we&#8217;re dealing with in [music] our present life at this moment.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 14 seconds A sign of healthy identification is to accept your traumatic experiences as an important part of your life story\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">A sign of healthy identification is to accept your traumatic experiences as an important part of your life story<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 21 seconds without them defining who you are today. So that last part is really important.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">without them defining who you are today. So that last part is really important.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 27 seconds Um it's not the only thing that you are. No identity is all of who we are, no matter\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Um it&#8217;s not the only thing that you are. No identity is all of who we are, no matter<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 34 seconds how deep it is. And people, you know, normal people do this all the time over and underidentify with things like some\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">how deep it is. And people, you know, normal people do this all the time over and underidentify with things like some<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 40 seconds people are so identified with their career they can't talk about anything else. You know, they don't know how to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:40<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people are so identified with their career they can&#8217;t talk about anything else. You know, they don&#8217;t know how to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 46 seconds actually invest in anything that's not workrelated for instance. You know, that's just a common thing in our\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">actually invest in anything that&#8217;s not workrelated for instance. You know, that&#8217;s just a common thing in our<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 51 seconds culture. It's especially important for us as survivors to not be defined by these\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:51<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">culture. It&#8217;s especially important for us as survivors to not be defined by these<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"26 minutes, 58 seconds things. The greater part of us is free from all of this. The greater part of us\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">26:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">things. The greater part of us is free from all of this. The greater part of us<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 3 seconds is well beyond anything that happens on this 3D level. I think all of us in this room are aware of that. We're aware of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">is well beyond anything that happens on this 3D level. I think all of us in this room are aware of that. We&#8217;re aware of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 10 seconds the strong importance of everything above the 3D, below the 3D. This is just\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the strong importance of everything above the 3D, below the 3D. This is just<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 15 seconds one layer of infinite layers in the in the infinite plan of goddess. So I think\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">one layer of infinite layers in the in the infinite plan of goddess. So I think<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 22 seconds we all know that here. So I don't have to belabor that point.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">we all know that here. So I don&#8217;t have to belabor that point.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 27 seconds Uh I want to talk just for a moment and this can get a little triggering so please take care of yourselves if you\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Uh I want to talk just for a moment and this can get a little triggering so please take care of yourselves if you<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 32 seconds need to. Um just talk a little bit about hostile alters dissociative identity\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">need to. Um just talk a little bit about hostile alters dissociative identity<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 38 seconds disorder systems. So [music] this is an extreme form of over or under\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">disorder systems. So [music] this is an extreme form of over or under<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 45 seconds identification. This gets more personal for survivors. Um, so we're just going\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">identification. This gets more personal for survivors. Um, so we&#8217;re just going<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 50 seconds to have a little bit of triggering material here and then after this we're going to go back to kind of more general\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to have a little bit of triggering material here and then after this we&#8217;re going to go back to kind of more general<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"27 minutes, 55 seconds things. Um, so within our alter system, some altars or aspects of us are still loyal\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">27:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">things. Um, so within our alter system, some altars or aspects of us are still loyal<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 3 seconds to our abusers and will repeat propaganda or mind control as their own beliefs. These tend to bully other\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to our abusers and will repeat propaganda or mind control as their own beliefs. These tend to bully other<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 10 seconds altars and may be introjects. That means they're internalized versions of perpetrators.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">altars and may be introjects. That means they&#8217;re internalized versions of perpetrators.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 16 seconds So a lot of us have an inner version like normal people um normal no one's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:16<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So a lot of us have an inner version like normal people um normal no one&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 22 seconds normal per se but non-s survivors have introjects as well when you can hear\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">normal per se but non-s survivors have introjects as well when you can hear<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 29 seconds let's for instance your mother or your father you can hear their opinion about little things and you're not looking for\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">let&#8217;s for instance your mother or your father you can hear their opinion about little things and you&#8217;re not looking for<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 35 seconds their opinion but it's in there and you're hearing it. So the same thing happens in a more extreme way with\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">their opinion but it&#8217;s in there and you&#8217;re hearing it. So the same thing happens in a more extreme way with<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 42 seconds traumab based mind control survivors. We can have internalized versions of perpetrators and they can say a lot of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">traumab based mind control survivors. We can have internalized versions of perpetrators and they can say a lot of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 49 seconds the same vicious things that they said during moments of horrific abuse and so they can retraumatize us from the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the same vicious things that they said during moments of horrific abuse and so they can retraumatize us from the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"28 minutes, 56 seconds inside. This is very problematic. Just something I wanted to name because\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">28:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">inside. This is very problematic. Just something I wanted to name because<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 3 seconds not all altars in our system are going to actually be us. Not all altars are\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">not all altars in our system are going to actually be us. Not all altars are<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 9 seconds created from the material of our own mind. Some are created from other material. It's very important to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">created from the material of our own mind. Some are created from other material. It&#8217;s very important to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 16 seconds disidentify with those. So th this is more complex and if you're dealing with\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:16<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">disidentify with those. So th this is more complex and if you&#8217;re dealing with<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 21 seconds this sort of stuff, I would definitely want to do maybe a private session or maybe you want to see another\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:21<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">this sort of stuff, I would definitely want to do maybe a private session or maybe you want to see another<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 27 seconds practitioner. It's very hard to work with on your own. Uh more submissive alters I others will\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">practitioner. It&#8217;s very hard to work with on your own. Uh more submissive alters I others will<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 34 seconds do anything to hide andor forget the abuse believing that their life still depends on that. Victimized altars are\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:34<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">do anything to hide andor forget the abuse believing that their life still depends on that. Victimized altars are<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 42 seconds usually in a dialectic with cult loyal altars. So\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">usually in a dialectic with cult loyal altars. So<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 49 seconds we have internalized versions of perpetrators. We have internalized versions of ourselves as a victim. And\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">we have internalized versions of perpetrators. We have internalized versions of ourselves as a victim. And<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"29 minutes, 55 seconds these are kind of in a dialectic that can be very hard to break. I mean realistically if you're at the point of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">29:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">these are kind of in a dialectic that can be very hard to break. I mean realistically if you&#8217;re at the point of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 2 seconds working this way, you're kind of already through the hardest part. You're you're on your way to healing already. So, um,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">working this way, you&#8217;re kind of already through the hardest part. You&#8217;re you&#8217;re on your way to healing already. So, um,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 10 seconds maybe I don't want to get too deep into this, but, uh, yeah, I can talk about that more with people if they're interested.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">maybe I don&#8217;t want to get too deep into this, but, uh, yeah, I can talk about that more with people if they&#8217;re interested.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 17 seconds I'm going to go to the next one. Yes. So, I think it's important to use honest language, to use accurate language. Um,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">I&#8217;m going to go to the next one. Yes. So, I think it&#8217;s important to use honest language, to use accurate language. Um,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 25 seconds and to to be real about what's happening, which is dehumanization. It's easy to forget at a conference like\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:25<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">and to to be real about what&#8217;s happening, which is dehumanization. It&#8217;s easy to forget at a conference like<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 32 seconds this that we're talking about trauma so extreme basically none of us can stay\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">this that we&#8217;re talking about trauma so extreme basically none of us can stay<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 38 seconds present for it emotionally. It's it's pretty much impossible. And that's part of how these things stay secret because\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">present for it emotionally. It&#8217;s it&#8217;s pretty much impossible. And that&#8217;s part of how these things stay secret because<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 46 seconds it's so hard to stay present with them. If we're honest about that, it helps us.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">it&#8217;s so hard to stay present with them. If we&#8217;re honest about that, it helps us.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 52 seconds Acknowledging that our basic human rights were not respected during our service helps us to integrate our\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Acknowledging that our basic human rights were not respected during our service helps us to integrate our<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"30 minutes, 57 seconds experiences. It's crucial to define our own personal values and to differentiate them from\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">30:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">experiences. It&#8217;s crucial to define our own personal values and to differentiate them from<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 3 seconds the antihuman sociopathic values of our perpetrators. So, this cannot be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the antihuman sociopathic values of our perpetrators. So, this cannot be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 9 seconds repeated enough. These abusers have an antihuman value\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">repeated enough. These abusers have an antihuman value<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 14 seconds system which can never be brought out into the open. As soon as it's out in the open, you can see and feel how\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">system which can never be brought out into the open. As soon as it&#8217;s out in the open, you can see and feel how<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 22 seconds ridiculous it is, how nobody would ever want to consciously avow such values. So\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">ridiculous it is, how nobody would ever want to consciously avow such values. So<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 29 seconds the more we can bring these values out into the open, the more we can work with them and we\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:29<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the more we can bring these values out into the open, the more we can work with them and we<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 36 seconds can emphasize what we want. I mean, and we don't have\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:36<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">can emphasize what we want. I mean, and we don&#8217;t have<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 41 seconds to look hard for human values. They're expressed everywhere. Even a satanic institution like the United Nations has\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:41<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to look hard for human values. They&#8217;re expressed everywhere. Even a satanic institution like the United Nations has<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 48 seconds a universal declaration of human rights. And it's great. It's something we should\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:48<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">a universal declaration of human rights. And it&#8217;s great. It&#8217;s something we should<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"31 minutes, 54 seconds all be thinking about. I mean, obviously they don't live up to their own word, but the words are important. Like the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">31:54<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">all be thinking about. I mean, obviously they don&#8217;t live up to their own word, but the words are important. Like the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 1 second words that people use, the values that they say they hold,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:01<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">words that people use, the values that they say they hold,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 7 seconds those are the values that we actually hold. And it's important to differentiate ourselves from those who\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">those are the values that we actually hold. And it&#8217;s important to differentiate ourselves from those who<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 13 seconds are just paying lip service to them. Don't be afraid to use extreme language\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:13<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">are just paying lip service to them. Don&#8217;t be afraid to use extreme language<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 18 seconds to describe extreme experiences. We are entitled to use direct terms\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:18<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">to describe extreme experiences. We are entitled to use direct terms<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 24 seconds including enslavement, torture, human trafficking, gangstalking, humiliation,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:24<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">including enslavement, torture, human trafficking, gangstalking, humiliation,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 31 seconds rape, ritual abuse, MK Ultra, and more.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">rape, ritual abuse, MK Ultra, and more.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 36 seconds Do you feel how the temperature in the room went up just slightly just from using that language? Like it makes\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:36<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Do you feel how the temperature in the room went up just slightly just from using that language? Like it makes<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 42 seconds things much more real. Especially for non-s survivors who don't have a context for these kinds of experiences. Like\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:42<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">things much more real. Especially for non-s survivors who don&#8217;t have a context for these kinds of experiences. Like<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 49 seconds when you say secret space program, they're like, &quot;Oh, okay. Whoop. Just goes right by.&quot; But if you say rape, oh,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">when you say secret space program, they&#8217;re like, &#8222;Oh, okay. Whoop. Just goes right by.&#8220; But if you say rape, oh,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"32 minutes, 56 seconds rape is bad. That's a serious thing. You actually get their attention. They start being actually present with you. So,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">32:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">rape is bad. That&#8217;s a serious thing. You actually get their attention. They start being actually present with you. So,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 2 seconds this is a very empowering tool to use as a survivor dealing with non-s survivors.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">this is a very empowering tool to use as a survivor dealing with non-s survivors.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 8 seconds When you use the simpler and more graphic language, it really, really helps for people to understand what's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">When you use the simpler and more graphic language, it really, really helps for people to understand what&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 15 seconds actually going on in a trauma- based mind control.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">actually going on in a trauma- based mind control.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 20 seconds When you act, speak, and think from your own common sense, it helps others do the same and moves us all towards a more\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">When you act, speak, and think from your own common sense, it helps others do the same and moves us all towards a more<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 27 seconds love-based humane culture. That should go without saying, but I'm\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:27<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">love-based humane culture. That should go without saying, but I&#8217;m<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 32 seconds saying it. Be mindful of language that whitewashes trauma and violence, for example,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">saying it. Be mindful of language that whitewashes trauma and violence, for example,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 39 seconds experimentation or time travel. We are human beings, not sci-fi characters. So,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:39<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">experimentation or time travel. We are human beings, not sci-fi characters. So,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 45 seconds anything you can do to humanize the experience, to communicate the experience to non-s survivors,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">anything you can do to humanize the experience, to communicate the experience to non-s survivors,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 51 seconds especially to loved ones where you really want that support and that validation. It's important to use\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:51<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">especially to loved ones where you really want that support and that validation. It&#8217;s important to use<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"33 minutes, 57 seconds language that's going to land and that will communicate the seriousness of the trauma.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">33:57<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">language that&#8217;s going to land and that will communicate the seriousness of the trauma.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 3 seconds So, that's a nice thing to do for grounding because if you just say if you just use, you know, language that's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:03<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">So, that&#8217;s a nice thing to do for grounding because if you just say if you just use, you know, language that&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 10 seconds going to make sense to other survivors, um you're probably not going to get the sort of emotional support that you're\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">going to make sense to other survivors, um you&#8217;re probably not going to get the sort of emotional support that you&#8217;re<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 17 seconds looking for. You're not crazy. The abuse is crazy.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">looking for. You&#8217;re not crazy. The abuse is crazy.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 23 seconds [laughter] This is a big theme in my work. Um, I often like to say that I I I wave a\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">[laughter] This is a big theme in my work. Um, I often like to say that I I I wave a<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 31 seconds you're not crazy wand. You're not crazy. You're not crazy. I can't say it enough.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:31<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">you&#8217;re not crazy wand. You&#8217;re not crazy. You&#8217;re not crazy. I can&#8217;t say it enough.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 37 seconds You, as the experiencer, are not the crazy thing. The crazy thing is the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:37<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">You, as the experiencer, are not the crazy thing. The crazy thing is the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 43 seconds intensely organized abuse, the scale of the abuse. One of the most difficult tasks in\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">intensely organized abuse, the scale of the abuse. One of the most difficult tasks in<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 49 seconds healing trauma- based mind control is to recognize that the abuse actually happened. It is real with memories or\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">healing trauma- based mind control is to recognize that the abuse actually happened. It is real with memories or<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"34 minutes, 58 seconds without. Even if you don't have conscious memories, you're going to have body memories. You're going to have\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">34:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">without. Even if you don&#8217;t have conscious memories, you&#8217;re going to have body memories. You&#8217;re going to have<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 4 seconds indications that something is up. And that's basically those are the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:04<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">indications that something is up. And that&#8217;s basically those are the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 9 seconds breadcrumbs that we're following as survivors. This is how we get to a more full healing by following those\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">breadcrumbs that we&#8217;re following as survivors. This is how we get to a more full healing by following those<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 16 seconds breadcrumbs. The existential and metaphysical nature of the abuse makes it difficult to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:16<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">breadcrumbs. The existential and metaphysical nature of the abuse makes it difficult to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 22 seconds address within consensus reality. I kind of said this already, but most\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:22<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">address within consensus reality. I kind of said this already, but most<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 28 seconds people just have no conception that reality can be manipulated in such ways as these. Like, what? You were moved\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people just have no conception that reality can be manipulated in such ways as these. Like, what? You were moved<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 36 seconds into a clone body? Hang on. It's easy to lose people that way. Um,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:36<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">into a clone body? Hang on. It&#8217;s easy to lose people that way. Um,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 44 seconds but it's important to be true to the experience because it does bring new spiritual potentials into the collective\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:44<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">but it&#8217;s important to be true to the experience because it does bring new spiritual potentials into the collective<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 50 seconds field. When we acknowledge these experiences in a grounded way, it brings\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:50<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">field. When we acknowledge these experiences in a grounded way, it brings<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"35 minutes, 55 seconds new potentials alive for all human beings, not just for survivors, but for all of us. What is consciousness? If\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">35:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">new potentials alive for all human beings, not just for survivors, but for all of us. What is consciousness? If<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 2 seconds consciousness can be moved into a clone body, maybe it's not what we thought it was, etc., etc. And so this does kind of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">consciousness can be moved into a clone body, maybe it&#8217;s not what we thought it was, etc., etc. And so this does kind of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 10 seconds move into metaphysical conversations which are hard enough for most people without trauma present.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:10<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">move into metaphysical conversations which are hard enough for most people without trauma present.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 18 seconds Uh billions of US dollars are spent on each SSP slave. The material resources\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:18<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Uh billions of US dollars are spent on each SSP slave. The material resources<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 24 seconds of every country in the world are going into abuse while resources for healing are scarce. To put it mildly, the cards\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:24<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">of every country in the world are going into abuse while resources for healing are scarce. To put it mildly, the cards<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 32 seconds are stacked against us. The distribution of resources is crazy. You're not crazy.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">are stacked against us. The distribution of resources is crazy. You&#8217;re not crazy.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 39 seconds This military-industrial complex and economic setup is crazy. That's the truly crazy thing. It's not you. So,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:39<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">This military-industrial complex and economic setup is crazy. That&#8217;s the truly crazy thing. It&#8217;s not you. So,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 47 seconds just so you know, I'm going to say that over and over. The sheer scale of the abuse makes it\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:47<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">just so you know, I&#8217;m going to say that over and over. The sheer scale of the abuse makes it<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 53 seconds difficult to have a grounded conversation about it. This is one version of too big to fail, which is\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:53<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">difficult to have a grounded conversation about it. This is one version of too big to fail, which is<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"36 minutes, 59 seconds what they said about the big satanic corporations. Oh, they can't go bankrupt. They're too integral to the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">36:59<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">what they said about the big satanic corporations. Oh, they can&#8217;t go bankrupt. They&#8217;re too integral to the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 6 seconds mind control system. We have to prop them up and keep the mind control going. You all know this, so I don't really\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:06<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">mind control system. We have to prop them up and keep the mind control going. You all know this, so I don&#8217;t really<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 12 seconds have to say it here, but it's nice again to state the obvious. Just wanted to\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:12<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have to say it here, but it&#8217;s nice again to state the obvious. Just wanted to<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 17 seconds have a brief word um as an as a an end note about personal connections,\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">have a brief word um as an as a an end note about personal connections,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 23 seconds balanced personal connections. So, uh as I was saying, we are social\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">balanced personal connections. So, uh as I was saying, we are social<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 28 seconds beings. We want our reality validated. We want to share our experience with others. So, we always want connections.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">beings. We want our reality validated. We want to share our experience with others. So, we always want connections.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 36 seconds Look for healthy connections regardless of where they appear. Sometimes people who don't understand your story can be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:36<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Look for healthy connections regardless of where they appear. Sometimes people who don&#8217;t understand your story can be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 43 seconds helpful and supportive anyway. Just like I was saying with therapists, there are some therapists who have no context for\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:43<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">helpful and supportive anyway. Just like I was saying with therapists, there are some therapists who have no context for<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 49 seconds trauma- based mind control, but they're trauma informed and they might be able to help you with something. It's the\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:49<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">trauma- based mind control, but they&#8217;re trauma informed and they might be able to help you with something. It&#8217;s the<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"37 minutes, 55 seconds same way with friends or acquaintances or work relationships. Any sort of healthy connection gets you grounded on\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">37:55<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">same way with friends or acquaintances or work relationships. Any sort of healthy connection gets you grounded on<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 2 seconds this plane of reality in this experience. By the same token, don't ignore toxic\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">this plane of reality in this experience. By the same token, don&#8217;t ignore toxic<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 8 seconds traits in others because they are conspiracyaware. Some people who do understand your story\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:08<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">traits in others because they are conspiracyaware. Some people who do understand your story<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 15 seconds can be extremely bad influences. We all know it. We've got toxic people\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:15<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">can be extremely bad influences. We all know it. We&#8217;ve got toxic people<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 20 seconds in this community. A lot of them are very obvious. This is a normal part of being a human being.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">in this community. A lot of them are very obvious. This is a normal part of being a human being.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 26 seconds It's really important to keep yourself healthy. Basically, uh well, this goes\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">It&#8217;s really important to keep yourself healthy. Basically, uh well, this goes<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 32 seconds into the next one. It's ideal to find people uh people people, excuse me. It's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:32<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">into the next one. It&#8217;s ideal to find people uh people people, excuse me. It&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 38 seconds ideal to find people people who understand the abuse and are also emotionally healthy. But this will be\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:38<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">ideal to find people people who understand the abuse and are also emotionally healthy. But this will be<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 45 seconds rare. When you have to choose one over the other, choose what's healthy for you. Choose what's healthy for you.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">rare. When you have to choose one over the other, choose what&#8217;s healthy for you. Choose what&#8217;s healthy for you.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"38 minutes, 54 seconds That's going to be the best thing to do. Above all else, become the friend you\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">38:54<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">That&#8217;s going to be the best thing to do. Above all else, become the friend you<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes would most want to have. This draws those qualities into your life. Most of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:00<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">would most want to have. This draws those qualities into your life. Most of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 5 seconds us are familiar with that spiritual principle. Embody that which you wish to see in the world. It really works for\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:05<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">us are familiar with that spiritual principle. Embody that which you wish to see in the world. It really works for<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 12 seconds relationships. The more you become a safe person, the more you attract safe\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:12<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">relationships. The more you become a safe person, the more you attract safe<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 17 seconds people. Which is part of why it's so hard for survivors at first because when we get when we get get out get out of\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:17<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people. Which is part of why it&#8217;s so hard for survivors at first because when we get when we get get out get out of<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 23 seconds the cults, get out of the programs, we are not safe people [laughter] and we\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:23<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">the cults, get out of the programs, we are not safe people [laughter] and we<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 28 seconds are going to attract people that are not safe. That's a normal part of getting free. We have to move through that and\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:28<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">are going to attract people that are not safe. That&#8217;s a normal part of getting free. We have to move through that and<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 35 seconds better ourselves. And the more that we have the qualities that we're looking for in ourselves, the more we will have\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:35<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">better ourselves. And the more that we have the qualities that we&#8217;re looking for in ourselves, the more we will have<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 41 seconds them in others. Yes. Um those are my\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:41<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">them in others. Yes. Um those are my<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 46 seconds slides. So, I'm going to I'm going to wind up here pretty much. Um, I'll be available for questions. I think there's\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:46<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">slides. So, I&#8217;m going to I&#8217;m going to wind up here pretty much. Um, I&#8217;ll be available for questions. I think there&#8217;s<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 52 seconds a little bit of time. Um, I know that again this is super basic, but we're just working with the time and working\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:52<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">a little bit of time. Um, I know that again this is super basic, but we&#8217;re just working with the time and working<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"39 minutes, 58 seconds with a lot of non-s survivors. Um, I'm just going to display my information here. So, um, this is Mount Shasta with\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">39:58<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">with a lot of non-s survivors. Um, I&#8217;m just going to display my information here. So, um, this is Mount Shasta with<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 7 seconds a little bit of a weird filter. Um, my business again is called Antarian\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:07<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">a little bit of a weird filter. Um, my business again is called Antarian<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 14 seconds Journeys because I work with the eighth density on beings. They usually come through in my sessions to work with\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:14<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Journeys because I work with the eighth density on beings. They usually come through in my sessions to work with<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 20 seconds people. So, it's Antarian Journeys coaching. Antarianjourneys.com.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:20<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">people. So, it&#8217;s Antarian Journeys coaching. Antarianjourneys.com.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 26 seconds I host guided meditation and healing groups online and in Mount Shasta, California. Some of you were at my\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:26<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">I host guided meditation and healing groups online and in Mount Shasta, California. Some of you were at my<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 33 seconds guided meditation yesterday um on the solar stage. So, that's basically what I\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:33<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">guided meditation yesterday um on the solar stage. So, that&#8217;s basically what I<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 39 seconds do every week. Um, you can drop in over Zoom or you can always drop in if you\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:39<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">do every week. Um, you can drop in over Zoom or you can always drop in if you<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 45 seconds happen to be in uh Northern California. And I do one-on-one sessions for\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:45<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">happen to be in uh Northern California. And I do one-on-one sessions for<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 51 seconds deprogramming andor spiritual development. They're very very closely\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:51<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">deprogramming andor spiritual development. They&#8217;re very very closely<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"40 minutes, 56 seconds related pursuits, so they flow together. If anybody wants to reach me or join a\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">40:56<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">related pursuits, so they flow together. If anybody wants to reach me or join a<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"41 minutes, 2 seconds meditation group, you can just write to the email on the screen. alandre riseup.net.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">41:02<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">meditation group, you can just write to the email on the screen. alandre riseup.net.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"segment style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"0\" role=\"button\" aria-label=\"41 minutes, 9 seconds Um, yeah. And thank you. Thank you so very much.\">\n<div class=\"segment-start-offset style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\" tabindex=\"-1\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n<div class=\"segment-timestamp style-scope ytd-transcript-segment-renderer\"><span style=\"color: #666699;\">41:09<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p><span style=\"color: #666699;\">Um, yeah. And thank you. 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